one

However, my solitary life in Lhasa seems rather unremarkable

The statement left Kang Jie completely stunned, and she was at a loss for words for quite some time

In fact, it was not like this at all. Only when she reached a deserted place did she stop, carelessly sat down on the ground, and began to cry.

Until the moment we parted, we had not reached a consensus on how to address him. At that moment, I had no choice but to call out "Lu Zhiyao" with a stiff upper lip. When he turned to look in my direction, I had already run over to him

Kang Jie placed her two hands on her belly, which was filled with wine, twisting them into a braid, while at that moment, her heart felt as if it had encountered a magnitude seven earthquake, shaking her world, which she had painstakingly tidied up to be somewhat orderly, into utter chaos once again

At that moment, Chen Chen was taken aback for a moment, and only when he saw her nonchalant demeanor did he realize that she was not joking.

He did not mention exactly when he would arrive, and out of a strange sense of pride, I did not ask either

A girl wearing a black tank top sat next to Kang Jie and enthusiastically asked her: "Beautiful, what song do you want to sing? I can help you choose."

You can rest assured, I will treat you well

With a flick of his wrist, Kang Jie couldn't even see where he had pulled out a stack of cash from, and he began to distribute tips to the ladies one by one. The girls who received the tips all smiled charmingly, saying, "Thank you, General Liu"

Forget it, no matter how I dress up, I will never be a beauty that captivates the nation. I comforted myself.

Kang Jie was almost in tears: "Thank you so much, I really won't sing."

Come, let us raise a glass to General Manager Liu together

My mother is an extremely snobbish person, and her words can be very vicious. In this regard, I resemble her, though I am better than she is. You have not heard the things she has said to my father; even the thick-skinned cannot withstand her harshness. It is too unpleasant, so I won't repeat it for you. As for my father, at first, he thought she was a woman and tried to be accommodating, but eventually, he could not tolerate it anymore. They would throw things at each other in the house, and later, when there were not enough things to throw, they started to fight.

Tang Xi smiled and said, "It's alright, I am inherently a very reserved person"

"How do you plan to explain this?" Kang Jie coldly stared at Chen Chen

My roommate Xiaomai invited me to visit Namtso Lake, and we went to Sera Monastery to watch the monks debate. The rest of the time, I spent every day at Jokhang Temple, turning the prayer wheels alongside the Tibetan people

After the event, the boss's words kept echoing in her mind, but instead of providing comfort, they only made her feel more distressed

Xiao Xiao added, "I know you have been to bed with him. I can do that too. Everything you can do for him, I can do as well. What you cannot do, I can also do. You might as well give up early."

What exactly happened that night? What was the reason that made Cheng Luoxun so resolute, causing Xu Zhijun to feel guilty to this day

There is no need to say anything more, Kang Jie let out a cold laugh, feigning a look of having truly moved on, and turned to leave

I intended to pull my hand away to hit him, but he held it tightly until mealtime, when neither of us could free a hand to hold the bowl, yet he still refused to let go

Tang Xi felt that the moment to reveal the answer had finally arrived. She steadied herself, trying her best not to reveal her emotions: "Forgiveness? Could it be that Xu Zhijun liked her so much, yet still did something to wrong her?"

It has been silent for a very long time, and the wind has scattered the ashes all over the ground

The first direct conflict between Kang Jie and Su Shi Qi occurred on the night when all employees of the company accompanied a client for karaoke.

Whether she cries, suffers, cannot eat, or cannot sleep at night, those are her own matters and have nothing to do with Chen Chen

Unable to apply makeup, all cosmetics have been sent back to Changsha, and there is not even a foundation product left. I can only face others with this sun-tanned dark face, going bare-faced.

It is not so easy to let go; it feels as if a wound has been stabbed into my chest, and no medication can alleviate this pain, a pain that even the closest friends cannot understand or share.

Kang Jie sat down by his bedside, lying motionless on the edge of the bed, gazing at him.

Tang Xi was still eager to continue the conversation, but Xu Zhijun and the others returned. He placed the corn in front of her and smiled, saying, "Go ahead and eat." She managed a forced smile, but had completely lost her appetite

The room is quite small, filled with comics and martial arts novels that boys read, as well as dirty clothes that Chen Chen has changed out of but has not yet washed. Above the room hangs a yellow lamp, with an old-fashioned switch that is the pull-string type.

Later, after a long time, upon learning about the events that transpired between Xu Zhijun and Tang Xi, I couldn't help but sigh with a heavy heart. The matter of love truly seems to be one where one is subdued by another. Why is it that in this world, among so many people, we keep circling back to loving those who do not love us enough?

A boy replied: "Yes, he has always been like this; saying a few more words is like taking his life."

I heard him softly ask me, "What is wrong with you?"

Liu stood up and mumbled to everyone, "Isn't it a happy evening today?"

I lifted my head and took a deep breath, Weiwei smiled and said, "It's nothing," as we embraced each other politely after a long separation

Chen Chen gestured for Kang Jie to lie down beside him. After a moment of thought, she did not make any excuses to decline and lay down next to him, fully clothed.

Half a year has passed. Chen Chen's solemn vows about the language of flowers still linger in the air, but with the appearance of that girl, Kang Jie’s world has been completely turned upside down

Kang Jie, you see that Shi Qi, who cannot drink alcohol, has already had some; you should also offer a toast to General Liu.

No one taught her how to cope with these challenges. Throughout her growth, she has always lacked someone to support her as she stumbled along. All her life experiences were not imparted by others, but rather understood through her own continuous falls and injuries. In fact, that saying is more appropriately applied to Kang Jie than to me.

She resolved to get to the bottom of the matter

Even though I experienced various frustrations and disappointments, even feelings of sadness, during the journey that followed, none of them were sufficient to diminish the profound emotion that surged from my heart at the moment of our reunion

It was a bright and sunny noon when Kang Jie looked up at the sky and felt as if her two eyes had gone blind.

When it came to Kang Jie, she initially wanted to refuse, but the boss beside her gave her a knowing glance, signaling her to accept it. Reluctantly, she took a few bills, yet in her heart, why did she feel such a mix of emotions?

struck by a bolt from the blue

I do not know why, at that moment, I was so concerned about my own image, to the point of being somewhat affected and overly meticulous. In the mirror, I saw myself wearing a sweater that I had purchased for fifty yuan on Bajiao Street, with my hair tied in a ponytail, and my expression appeared somewhat anxious.

From a distance, seeing them get out of the taxi, I found myself somewhat hesitant to take a step forward

Please do not act this way; I mean no harm. It was his mother who mentioned it casually, saying that he needs more guidance. He does not seem as spirited as he used to be.

The voices of the male and female duet rise and fall, while two faces on the screen, seemingly paralyzed from excessive Botox injections, weave through the music video, distorting their expressions in the most exaggerated manner possible, attempting to convey the deep emotions contained within the song to the audience

As soon as he finished speaking, he was refuted by his girlfriend: "Nonsense! When he was with Luo Xun before, he was incredibly lively and could tell jokes that were absolutely hilarious."

While Kang Jie was speaking, Chen Chen kept playing with her hair, listening quietly until she stopped, and then asked: "So they are not good to you either, right?"

Tang Xi sat upright, waiting for a suitable opportunity to casually cast out his bait.

How to prove one's loyalty to love, loyalty to one's own heart, perhaps at the same time, you are also contemplating this question.

Chen Chen lit a cigarette, looking helplessly at the trembling Kang Jie, and slowly said: "I was just having some fun with her, you don't need to take it too seriously, I will resolve it as soon as possible"

Su Shiqi immediately showcased her ability as a social butterfly: "Then I will accompany General Liu in singing!"

The girl still hasn't given up: "It's okay, I'll sing with you. What do you want to sing?"

Everyone echoed in agreement: "Mr. Liu is right."

Years later, neither Kang Jie nor Chen Chen could remember the appearance of that girl or the details of the book, and even her name had become vague. When they mentioned her, they only referred to her as Xiao Xiao. However, Kang Jie could never forget the pain she had endured at that time

Indeed, as Xu Zhijun mentioned, the gathering itself lacks novelty; in Changsha, the nightlife of most young people consists merely of bar hopping and karaoke.

Finally, someone said they were hungry. Xu Zhijun got up with another boy to go buy barbecue. When Tangxi was thinking about what she wanted to eat, she deliberately said she wanted a grilled corn.

General Liu, with a radiant complexion, was very happy, laughing as if he were about to leave this world: "No, no, no, I toast to the beautiful ladies; it is my turn to toast to the beautiful ladies"

Why are there so many people in the world who, after going around in circles, end up loving those who do not love them enough

At that moment, the phone rang

The bowl of instant noodles in my hand was almost knocked over. As I rushed into the bathroom to comb my hair, I looked at my panicked face in the mirror and scolded myself harshly, "Cheng Luoxun, you fool, can't you be a little more composed? Will being composed kill you?"

After they had placed their luggage, our group of people energetically found a Sichuan restaurant to sit down. Lu Zhiyao naturally took my hand and introduced me to the friends we were about to embark on a journey with: "This is Yichen, and this is Aliang." Then turning to me, "This is Cheng Luoxun, whom I picked up on the way."

Kang Jie is different from me; she is more resolute than I am. From the moment she turned away, she never once thought about pleading with Chen Chen, nor did she ever consider starting over.

Sitting in a small, quiet bar, everyone was casually discussing topics such as housing prices, stocks, and investment management. Xu Zhijun spoke very little, only lazily expressing his opinions when his name was mentioned.

When that group of flamboyantly dressed girls, wearing revealing outfits, entered, Kang Jie felt dizzy and disoriented. In fact, she did not look down on those girls; everyone is just trying to make a living. However, in such an occasion, she truly felt particularly at a loss.

There was not a trace of guilt on his face; it was from that day onward that Kang Jie realized that many things could become very unfamiliar overnight, as if they had never touched their essence at all

Lu Zhiyao and I seem to be following some kind of unspoken rule, where neither of us truly touches that part of each other's hearts. After going through those experiences, I closed the door to my heart against the entire world, but I know he hasn't. He is genuinely indifferent and unconcerned.

However, this sentence only turned over in her heart. After sighing, she still stood up and respectfully raised her glass to Mr. Liu, saying: "I toast to you!"

But if there is really nothing, what is the reason for the sourness that spreads from the chest cavity to the nasal cavity?

Thus, Kang Jie is right; we are indeed a group of fools, a group of idiots who are equally matched and share the same level of foolishness.

As I sat in the small bar drinking together in the evening, I gazed at the flickering candlelight, questioning myself in my heart

The tips of her hair made Chen Chen's face feel a bit itchy. Chen Chen asked her to turn around to face him, and their faces were only a few inches apart. In each other's clear gaze, time flowed slowly.

At that moment, Kang Jie could hardly believe what he was hearing. How could he be so nonchalant? He was on the verge of being driven to death by his betrayal, yet it seemed as if he was discussing something trivial. How could he so casually shirk his responsibilities?

Kang Jie looked at his shiny bald head and genuinely worried: Fatty! You better not suddenly have a cerebral hemorrhage!

She recognized the fragility and impermanence of love earlier and more profoundly than I did, and long, long ago, she accepted all of this with composure

Isn't it actually very simple? Just do as others do, and isn't that enough? Why is it not possible to do so?

Who will come to save me

At that time, Xiao Xiao came directly to Kang Jie and said, "Do you want him? He no longer likes you."

It was during such lonely times that she gradually grew up all by herself

It was during the year when she was fifteen that Kang Jie first spent the night outside with Chen Chen. Chen Chen asked her if she was afraid of not going home, and this was her response.

"Are your parents' relationship not good?" Chen Chen asked

At that time, they never imagined that the two who once cherished each other tenderly would eventually go their separate ways. They did not find Chen Chen's words to be absurdly unrealistic; Kang Jie even replied earnestly, "You could say that, anyway, I won't be treated poorly. But that was in the past. After he found another woman, many things became complicated, sigh... it's just a bunch of troublesome matters, better left unmentioned." But that was in the past. After he found another woman, many things became complicated, sigh... it's just a bunch of troublesome matters, better left unmentioned.

Cooking corn requires a certain amount of time, during which she must make the most of it

I originally thought he was just somewhat reluctant to share his matters with me, but it turns out he has someone in his heart that he is unwilling to mention to anyone. Sitting in the passenger seat, Tang Xi silently gazed at Xu Zhijun's profile, lost in sorrowful thoughts.

That was a major client. The boss said that if we secured this deal, the big boss would take everyone on a trip. Upon hearing this, everyone in the company was eager and ready, resembling a determined army set to conquer the enemy fortress. During dinner that night, Kang Jie could hardly remember what she had eaten, only that the table was filled with people continuously raising their glasses.

The private room was already dimly lit, and with everyone sitting in a mixed crowd, the intoxicated General Liu could hardly see who was who. When it was sent to Su Shiqi, she did not refuse but instead responded with a "Thank you, General Liu".

Kang Jie had no choice but to pull the eldest over to act as a shield: "This is our manager, he is a karaoke enthusiast, you can sing with him, I will just enjoy it, enjoying is enough!"

While she was secretly eating watermelon, after Liu finished singing a song and looked around, he said something that almost made Kang Jie spit out her watermelon: "With so many men, there are only two beauties, isn't that a bit lacking? I am quite familiar with the manager here; I will ask him to find a few more beauties to join us for some fun."

Seeing Kang Jie remain silent, Chen Chen added: "It's not just me; all my brothers around me are the same. If you change to someone else, it would be the same."

The girl was just about to say something when her boyfriend interrupted her: "Just be quiet, mind your own business."

The vows made at the age of sixteen or seventeen are undoubtedly more sincere and resolute than those made at twenty, and they are certainly more pure and simple than those made at twenty-five

Once this thought took root, it was as if it had settled deep within Tang Xi's heart. When the gathering came to an end, she asked the girl for her phone number under the pretext of "let's go shopping together sometime"

Chen Chen could not help but laugh: "So, does that mean that if I marry you in the future, it would be like making a small fortune?"

That night, because Chen Chen was ill, Kang Jie decided to stay at his grandmother's house to keep him company. After the elderly lady fell asleep, they quietly opened the door and slipped into Chen Chen's bedroom

Tang Xi felt a tremor in her heart, and the slight awkward expressions of the few people around her, fleeting in the dim light, were firmly captured in her eyes: "I have also heard about it; their relationship must be very good"

Taking advantage of the moment when everyone was applauding, she swiftly grabbed a piece of watermelon from the platter on the table and stuffed it into her mouth. She was truly starving; having heard about the grand feast in the evening, she had deliberately eaten only a little at noon. Who would have thought that they would be drinking the whole time, leaving her chopsticks hardly touched.

The deepest pain is often the one that cannot be expressed. Regarding this matter, she has never spoken to anyone. Silence cannot suppress sorrow, but at the very least, it can prevent it from expanding

This is our first and only embrace

President Liu smiled with satisfaction, then made an effort to widen his squinting eyes as he looked around at everyone: "Everyone can be happy, and we must thank the beautiful ladies present for their wonderful contributions. Without them, we wouldn't be this happy, would we?"

But when you open your eyes, thinking you have to face this cruel and vicious world once again, someone tells you that it is not a dream, it is all real

It is fate that we can sit together to share this meal today, so I propose a toast to fate

In fact, there is nothing particularly entertaining; the two people are simply talking and chatting

Since you have not made any mistakes, why are you still avoiding me

Cheng Luoxun! This is the name!

In short, our family has been ruined by my mother

In fact, I am unable to do it

Some say that intelligent individuals should understand what they want, that they should distance themselves from those who drain their life, and that they should be with those who truly love them, following the arrangements of fate rather than merely their own hearts

The most annoying thing is that we can't leave after finishing our meal, General Liu exclaimed with high spirits, shall we go sing?

As expected, once they entered the private room, General Manager Liu kicked things off with a bang: "Miss Su or Miss Kang, would you like to duet with me on 'Making Mistakes'?"

Kang Jie was immediately flustered in the wind: "What song? I can't sing it!"

"Forgive my boldness, but since your feelings are so strong, why must you part ways?" The genuine confusion on Tang Xi's face was not feigned; she sincerely sought an answer.

I cannot describe the emotions that surged within me at that time, nor what they were called. I once told myself that if I could not force myself to face those who would make my heart race in an instant with a calm and impassive expression, then I should not go to see them

The boss, being entrusted by others, took it upon himself to care for Kang Jie to the best of his ability. Of course, he never revealed a hint of the inside story, so Kang Jie had no idea that it was actually Xiao Hang who had asked the boss to look after her

However, most of us, in the process of aging rapidly, have long forgotten the words we once spoke.

Chen Chen felt a bit embarrassed, turning his face back and forth, unsure of what to do: "Don't stare at me like that, although I know I am handsome"

The term 'bad' is far too insufficient to describe them; they treat each other as if they are sworn enemies... Since I became aware of my surroundings, I have heard them arguing incessantly. I cannot help but wonder if they were under some delusion when they got married, or if they were out of their minds when they decided to have me.

I did not plan it, yet when standing in front of him, my entire body completely disregarded my will and lunged forward

Before Lu Zhiyao arrived in Lhasa, we exchanged a few text messages intermittently, each seeming to fulfill a formal obligation to report on our respective itineraries. From his messages, I learned of some place names I had never heard of before, such as Seda and Zhaojie.

Everyone chuckled a few times with a "heh heh," but no one engaged in conversation, nor was it appropriate to do so

After a moment of silence, the girl finally spoke: "There’s nothing we can do, he doesn’t want to break up either. I guess he must have done a lot to try to win back Luoxun since that night, but Luoxun surely can’t forgive him. To be honest, neither of them is at fault. While some people think Luoxun is too heartless, and others believe it’s Xu Zhijun’s own doing, in my view, neither of them is at fault..." Although some people think Luoxun is too heartless, and others believe it’s Xu Zhijun’s own doing, in my view, neither of them is at fault...

It seems that this is a shared opinion among everyone. The girl no longer concealed her feelings and continued in accordance with Tang Xi's words: "Indeed, ever since they broke up, Xu Zhijun has not been very fond of hanging out with us anymore, and he no longer brings up the matter of Luo Xun. If he doesn't mention it, we all dare not bring it up either, sigh..."

Watching the boss and that girl in the black spaghetti strap exchange words, while Su Shiqi and General Liu share drinks, Kang Jie sits in the corner of the sofa feeling both bored and helpless, finding it neither entertaining nor possible to leave

I watched as a group of people took their luggage out of the trunk, while Lu Zhiyao supported his guitar, standing by the street.

Later, Chen Chen came to find her several times, repeatedly emphasizing that he had completely severed ties with Xiao Xiao. However, as Kang Jie looked at his lips moving, she could no longer believe a single word he said. Even a long time later, when she had completely lost all feelings for him, this sense of distrust still lingered.

My parents do not care about me

Should I not despise this feeling of being moved? Should I not feel ashamed for my own expectations? Should I not feel guilty for this sudden joy?

Chen Chen lay on the bed and said to her, I am quite capable, every time the wire breaks, I personally carry the ladder to fix it, I tell you, it requires skill, one careless move could get me electrocuted, haha

I know you feel embarrassed, but you have no grudge against money, right? Look at Su Shiqi, she is quite adaptable. Kang Jie, sometimes sacrificing a little bit of oneself is not a big deal

Kang Jie rolled her eyes and thought, what songs can I sing with you? If you can sing a bit of Phoenix Legend or Murong Xiaoxiao, that would be quite good! I'm afraid you won't even be able to sing any online songs.

After many years, she suddenly recalled her youthful memories, not knowing which nerve had touched the box of memories

It is not as you think, it is ... ...

That was the first time Tang Xi took the initiative to ask if she could accompany him to the gathering with his friends. After a brief moment of astonishment, he nodded and said, "Sure, but I'm afraid you might find it boring"

However, when I woke up that noon, holding a bowl of instant noodles and just about to start eating, my phone vibrated, and when his text message jumped into view, I still could not remain calm.

Silence does not signify my fault, and breaking up is not the only outcome; I just have not yet figured out how to express this to you

Under normal circumstances, Kang Jie would have long since made a sarcastic remark, but on this day, she suddenly shed all her sharpness, speaking so gently that it was hard to believe: "Are you feeling better after taking the medicine? Is there anything you would like to eat? I can go out and buy it for you"

Everyone echoed with laughter: "Yes, very happy"

Come, let us toast to General Liu for showing such courtesy

Chen Chen also retracted his playful smile and shook his head, saying: "No need, just playing with me is enough."

Her subtext is: Of course, I am not as interesting as that Cheng Luoxun of yours; otherwise, how could it be that after all this time, you still can't forget her

However, there was no way out; she had to go. The boss kept signaling with his eyes, so she had no choice but to get into the car

Kang Jie stared at the ceiling light for a moment and said: "That's not the case. My father is quite good to me. Although I am not a daughter who brings him pride, he has said that when I get married in the future, I will certainly not be worse off than other daughters. Whatever others have, I will have as well."

The friends standing beside him were all laughing, and although I blushed, I had no intention of letting go of him. After a second passed, I felt that he also embraced me in return.

She shook her head as she spoke, clearly feeling genuine regret for them

That feeling is extremely unreal, just like... You had a beautiful dream, and in the dream, you knew it was a dream. You are more aware than anyone else that all these warm lights, sweet and enchanting, brilliant and resplendent, are merely a fleeting illusion, evaporating under the sun.

Although Cen Chen spoke in a very mocking tone, Kang Jie felt an indescribable sadness upon hearing it

But why is it so difficult for people like us to submit to fate, when I see that many others seem to do so naturally?

At that time, there was not a trace of rift between them, no scheming girls to sow discord, and no grandiose excuses from Chen Chen to pursue women. It was still the best and most beautiful time of love.

Countless bottles of wine were opened, and after drinking too much, General Liu was particularly happy. He promised to send someone the next day to sign the contract with the boss, and all the colleagues present breathed a sigh of relief. However, what happened next was something that left Kang Jie particularly devastated

No job is easy to manage, she sighed softly, reminiscing about the days spent in the bar

Has he always been so taciturn?" Taking advantage of the bar singer switching to a gentle song, she asked those still seated with a smile

Holding the few banknotes that General Liu had given her, she chuckled self-deprecatingly in the night breeze and walked into a convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes

It is evident that she did not come to discuss with Kang Jie, but merely to inform her: I have taken your man!

The final statement that made Kang Jie feel that losing this person was not regrettable at all was: "Chen Chen said, my chest is much larger than yours."

Kang Jie looked at the table full of delicacies but could not indulge herself, feeling quite frustrated inside. Upon hearing those words, she immediately wanted to retort: "Why should I have to drink just because she did? If one day she decides to jump off a building, does that mean I have to follow suit?"

We have arrived, just got off the train, see you later

At that time, Xiao Hang had offended her in the bar, and she could still condemn him with righteous indignation. But now, her principles and persistence seem so out of place and stubborn to others